I was born in the late 60’s, and raised in a middle class home. In my family, speaking about personal, private things was a no-no. I kept a dairy as a little girl, but my brothers found it… I have had a difficult time committing anything to writing for a very long time. I was bullied relentlessly for years, in school. It got so bad that my mom was going to send me to a private school; but the school district changed the boundaries and I went to a diffent school. The new school was just as bad, at first. It did get better, but by then, it was too late for me- I had already started to isolate. I joined the Navy and endured a different kind of “bullying”. I loved bootcamp- my company commanders were both women, and I was noticed for my abilites; not my looks. That was the last time I was safe in the Navy. During A school (my first school), one of my instructors would write me little love notes. I was 19 years old. I made it though that school without being touched, but that all changed in my C school(specialty school, which was advanced x-ray). In the Navy, if a sailor has ANY personal issues, they are ordered to go see the Chaplain. I was ending an abusive relationship and was ordered to see this LT. I am not ready to share the details with the world yet, but he was stalking me, and ended with a sexual assault. On top of that, one of my instructors would regularly chase me around the dark room and pin me up against walls in the dark. The head of my class used to SCREAM at me and tell me that I was a horrible mother, because my daughter was in daycare. There was no getting away from any of the abuse; and I was just 20 and 21 years old. My next and last duty station was no better. My Chief would order my into his office, make me shut the door, and then assault me. I found out there was an opening at Parris Island, the Marine Corps bootcamp, and jumped at it. The Marines were AWESOME. Not one single issue with the Marines. I was “doc” which I think helped. I will always have a special place in my heart for the Marines. One thing most of the public does not know is, if one reports sexual abuse, harrassment or assault, they are drummed out of the Navy, and they do their best to make sure we have no future. For years, I thought that I was the only one; it is pathetic that I am not, but at least I am not alone. Thank you for reading my first post, I appreciate it. God bless.